I read recently that liking what you do is happiness, doing what you love is freedom. Or something like that. Fact is, I think that applies to everything in life, not just work.
Each day is filled with possibilities and potential when you wake up. Not to put on the pressure but I am becoming more and more aware of the fact that we literally are in seconds and minutes in our actions and words and thoughts. I'm more aware of how I spend my days, the priorities I place on certain things and people, when actually my gut says they are misaligned. I don't ever want to think that I've wasted a day, even if I do one important thing then it'll be a day well spent.
I find myself wondering a lot more: how am I going to live today, what am I going to do, how am I going to impact upon the people around me, can I change something for them, can I make them feel better? Can I please stop thinking about myself and my problems? Is it actually possible to not think of yourself? To be self-less? I feel confronted all the time, never has my mind been this bombarded by a few specific thoughts which fragment into so many during the day. Suddenly I find I've been gazing out the window for a few minutes and then I think - what the heck? I need to refocus and do more of the things I've wanted to do.
But saying that, my mind is so much clearer than it has been these past few months. I see clearly what it is that I have to do but also I can see the optional paths in front of me. Choice is one of the most complicated things that exist in our world - free will, the ability to choose one thing from another. To make a decision and then live with the results of that choice, not knowing the outcome until its either too late or it worked a treat and you're happy as fuck.
That's probably why gambling is so popular, its like flexing your choice muscles - yes the risk is financial and possibly emotional if extreme, but its not always that scary. Hmm. Rambling.
Each day is filled with possibilities and potential when you wake up. Not to put on the pressure but I am becoming more and more aware of the fact that we literally are in seconds and minutes in our actions and words and thoughts. I'm more aware of how I spend my days, the priorities I place on certain things and people, when actually my gut says they are misaligned. I don't ever want to think that I've wasted a day, even if I do one important thing then it'll be a day well spent.
I find myself wondering a lot more: how am I going to live today, what am I going to do, how am I going to impact upon the people around me, can I change something for them, can I make them feel better? Can I please stop thinking about myself and my problems? Is it actually possible to not think of yourself? To be self-less? I feel confronted all the time, never has my mind been this bombarded by a few specific thoughts which fragment into so many during the day. Suddenly I find I've been gazing out the window for a few minutes and then I think - what the heck? I need to refocus and do more of the things I've wanted to do.
But saying that, my mind is so much clearer than it has been these past few months. I see clearly what it is that I have to do but also I can see the optional paths in front of me. Choice is one of the most complicated things that exist in our world - free will, the ability to choose one thing from another. To make a decision and then live with the results of that choice, not knowing the outcome until its either too late or it worked a treat and you're happy as fuck.
That's probably why gambling is so popular, its like flexing your choice muscles - yes the risk is financial and possibly emotional if extreme, but its not always that scary. Hmm. Rambling.
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